crushes

thanks for crying when i told you i loved you on skype a few days ago. you said it was happy crying and i began to think of how many people don't tell you it. i'm sorry i'm a screw up sometimes and it's hard to describe things but the way you make me feel is amazing. you send me to paradise, heaven, nirvana, any sort of 'good place' in any religion, you take me there. i'm sorry i made you worry when i didn't tell you i was at school. i'm sorry i can't understand things as quick as other people and when you text me i can't understand tone and i'm a jealous mess - i'm sorry. but the moment you show me affection and compassion and that i'm yours to keep, it all goes away. i'm sorry your stepdad is an asshole and i can't be there when he lashes out and i'm sorry everything bad happened to you but i'm going to fix it. i'm not going to let you go because of something you can't control, i'm going to help you and make you feel like you're important and you mean something because honestly a life without you is one i don't wanna live in.

sorry this is long but hi i'm back on forums.